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  2020-04-26

  Tired

  Gennady Khodov provides reflections on the quarantine in their home
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  2020-04-26

  Uncertainty (Author: Gennady Khodov)

  Reading the news earlier this year, I came across information that people in China got coronavirus, and some even died because of it. When I read the news, I thought it would pass soon and thought the virus wouldn't reach our country. But I was too naive. After a while, the situation in the world was getting worse and the virus had gotten into many countries. At that time, I was beginning to realize that it was all very serious and that the virus was very dangerous to human civilization. In many countries, the authorities took strict measures to protect people from infection. In mid-March, a state of emergency was declared in Kazakhstan. People were in panic. Many people went to shops and bought a lot of food. I had the impression that the apocalypse was coming. But I was calm about the situation and did not buy a lot of groceries. Then I started monitoring the situation and reading the news about the coronavirus almost every day. There was a shortage of masks and antiseptics in our city and the prices of these things were very much up. People started to lose their jobs and I was afraid that I would lose my job too. I was working in another city, and I lived far away from work and in the city where my father and grandmother lived. And now I've been quarantined in many cities in our country. I didn't know what to do when they quarantined me. I couldn't go to another city for my work. I got depressed. I was afraid I would be left without money and all my clothes and documents were left with my grandmother in another city. I couldn't get my stuff to my girlfriend's. My girlfriend is pregnant. And I was also afraid for her. She's about to have a baby, and I lost my income. At that moment I was even thinking about suicide. How can I provide for the girl, myself and the future child in this situation?) These thoughts have tormented and tormented me until now. I got another job, but they don't pay me much here. And this money will probably not be enough, and the baby will be born this summer. Cases of coronavirus are only growing and I understand that the quarantine will last a long time and I will not see my grandmother and father soon. But for now, I'm trying to stay strong and keep my spirits up. I hope for the best... But I don't know what's gonna happen next... Uncertainty is a little scary. And I want to finish my small text with a quote from Arthur Schopenhauer: The world is definitely bad in every respect: it is aesthetically like a caricature, intellectually - like a madhouse, morally - like a fraudulent brothel, and in general - like prison. (Translated the text with a translator. Thank you for reading it...)