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  2021-04-22

  Queer Joy

  Throughout the pandemic I have found myself with a lot more time for introspection than usual. I had thought at the start of this pandemic I had felt rather self-assured. I thought I knew what I wanted as a career, for my future, and mostly what kind of person I wanted to become. However, the more time I spent alone the more I realized how much of myself had been a performance for others. For once, the pandemic encouraged me to slow down enough to evaluate what my own personal wants and needs are. I also grew spiritually, emotionally, and intellectually. I was especially surprised to find myself changing my opinions on religion. For years, I have subscribed to rather devout atheism, to the point it nears becoming a religion in my attempts to cut it out. However now I have found myself accepting the mystic much more, and allowing myself to stop explaining everything. Though all these added experiences I was able not to find something new in my queerness per say, but a new way to relate to my world. I was able to find peace with myself as a queer person in the world, not in spite of it. I think the time alone allowed me a lot of space to appreciate the community and its place. To finally start feeling like the bonds and friendships and joy of myself and other queer people is worth even more than just surviving. I think one of the most important things that happened was coming to terms with myself as a nonbinary person. For years I was confident I was a binary trans man due to my physical transition goals and personal fears of being delegitimized in public. I finally realized and accepted that myself is no one else’s business. I have found a new peace with living authentically, even when other people react poorly. Finally, I honestly love being queer.
• 2021-01-16

  Lucid Dreaming

  This past year has been a life changing journey for me. I learned a lot, I learned things about myself, and life itself. My mind has been opened up and i now see things in a different way. I see things a way one might not and it even scares people. The photo I uploaded is a drawing i drew. It is of a girl in my dreams. I have the same dream every friday and she’s in it. In the dream she just looks at me from afar and saying absolutely nothing. I’m not even sure what it means, but i know it means something. From ever since I can remember my dreams have been a warning, vision, or lesson. Some people think i’m crazy but I think it’s rather exceptional. Over the pandemic i’ve been learning to not care about other people and just do me. That’s exactly what i’ve been doing and it’s been life changing. I’m finding out who I am as my third eye leads me to experience things in a new way.
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  2020-10-19

  Jewish Melbourne: Melton online programming

  During the lockdown Melton School turned to online programming in order to continue classes. This is one example of a course which they ran.