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2021-04
How Covid 19 Made Me Feel
I created this image to visually represent my experience with covid-19. The goal is sharing my personal experience in hopes this reaches people who have felt the same. The coronavirus pandemic has affected people globally. Everything from anger to hopefulness, confusion to contentment can be used to describe experiences and feelings in regards to the pandemic as a whole. This foreign virus is historical, and will be in records as one of few other pandemics of this magnitude. This contribution to the archive is one of many attempting to provide an understanding for the future. -
2020-01-01
Surviving 2020 & COVID-19 Pandemic: Life As A College Student
As the ball dropped on New Year’s Day I embraced and kissed my boyfriend in excitement of what would await us in 2020, if only I knew. As we said our goodbyes to our friends we drove home on a side road to avoid the frantic traffic of drunk drivers and people rushing to get home. All I remember is driving in front of my boyfriend’s car and then waking up to him sobbing over me. My car lights were on, sunroof open, glass shattered everywhere, my blood stained on my wheel and purple bruises on ribs. Long story short I was smashed into by a drunk driver, my car flipped, rolled, and was finally crushed into a tree with me inside while my significant other watched it unravel before his eyes. This was my beginning to 2020 and I wished and hoped that it would only be better from there on but I was horribly wrong. On March 11th of 2020 I received an email from my university stating that it would be closed and urged all students to return home for the remainder of the semester. As many college students saw this as an extended spring break at the time we were all happy since it basically meant more partying. After week one passed of receiving the email I quickly realized that being isolated would be my downfall and it sure was. By the end of the Spring semester I had failed a couple classes and was desperately trying to crawl out of a depressive episode. Since I am, or rather struggling to be a nursing student still, failing my Anatomy and Physiology I class sent me into a spiral of what ifs and how my GPA would recover from these failed courses. The realization of retaking these courses in order to save my future and using my only two chances of “erasing” my unsatisfactory grades crushed me. I was shattered by this reality but continued to push myself through Summer term to ace these courses, I studied day and night sacrificing friendships and days out for an A. As Summer came to an end Fall came and I barely passed the classes online because I struggled to adapt and truly retain the material meanwhile peers in my class were either completely giving up or cheating their way through the online, remote exams. To add the cherry on top, I was battling my university’s Housing Board in order to cancel my dorm agreement because many COVID cases had been recorded in my building and my roommates still went out to clubs while not wearing masks. As the months passed and semesters came and went, I felt my sanity slipping and today I still sit in fear of my future. I struggle leaving my apartment due to the fear of exposure to COVID and accidentally passing it onto my only parent who suffers from lupus. This pandemic has truly crushed me and unfortunately it seems that I will be spending the remainder of my college life and 20s in this chaotic, barren, and lonely society where we only see each other screen to screen. -
2020-08-10
The Boys
Over the beginning of the pandemic, many people were feeling bored and hopeless and felt like there was not much meaning to anything anymore. Then when we realized the pandemic was not serious I was asked to hang out with a few of my closest friends and a few I didn't know as well. The feeling of having such a great time just being normal and hanging out with good people in the pandemic just made me happy and feel warm inside. The feeling of true laughter and joy, which I haven't felt for a while meant the world to me. We hung out all summer with Us 10 or 11 almost every day and I believe it helped all of us through the pandemic and made our lives better and hopefully created some lifetime bonds that we won't lose. Just the feeling of being a part of something and something that made you happy during the pandemic is the best feeling you can create. -
09/20/2020
Joey Attalah Oral History, 2020/09/20
This interview shows the life of a high school graduate in the middle of the COVID-19 Pandemic. Joey graduated from Cambridge Rindge & Latin School in 2020, missing out on his final season of lacrosse brought sadness, although not the same sadness that people took pity on him for. He found joy in being with his family, especially during his virtual graduation. -
2020-04-26
Hopeless laziness
I want to tell you about my expiriense of covid-19 isolation. I'm a little man, 26 age, programmer, introvert, therefore, I endure isolation almost painlessly. At my student times I sat at home during weeks which served as a good preparation for the present situation. I almost don't suffer from a lack of live communication, becouse I have a lot of friends at web, and we can call to eachouthers every day and spend our time by playing computer games. But anyway I have one big problem via covid-19. It is a bigest procrastination. I want to change my job, and thereby need learn a lot of materials, but all this decadent atmosphere making me lost my time and procrastinating. This is horrible. Looks like this pandemic situation indulges to my lazy demons, becouse all people don't do nothing, therefore, I do the same. >_< . Or maybe I justify my laziness in this way. Any way, I know, that all this problems end, and life will return to it's course again. This pandemic don't scared me, but I learned that I must be ready to meet face to face situations, which I can’t influence in any way.