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• 2021-08

  A light in the Dark

  The pandemic was a very dark time for the world and it was a dark time for me personally. I just remembering feeling at if the world would be stuck in this moment forever it felt like someone had just hit the pause button and stopped everything and in a sense that is pretty much what happened. While just going the motions of what the new normal for the world I remember getting news that practically unpaused everything for me and the news was that I would be getting a nephew. This is the reason why I see my nephew as a light in the darkness because it was the news of his life that gave me the ability to look past all of the bad that was happening and to start looking forward and keep pushing because there are always going to be good things that eventually come along.
• 2021

  Am I Stupid or Something*?

  I felt, and recurringly feel inadequate or delayed because of COVID-19 and the subsequent lockdown. There is not one story that stands out, rather several instances of the same overwhelming feeling of how far behind I am, what could have been of myself, all the things I could've achieved, etcetera. However, before my face gets hot and the tears well, I burst out into a chuckle. Not only am I not alone, there is approximately seven billion other earth dwellers feeling some version of the exact same thing. I can't be stupid, otherwise, I would lack the depth and perception to know what I've closed, while using my empathy and cadence to remember others have lost more, and always to be grateful. A stupid person would not be vaccinated and advocate against misinformation during a pandemic, nor continue to test themselves for the sake. I can accept things lost because of those that were not, like my life, my health, and those around me. I am many things: blessed, mindful, and kind. To say the covid-19 pandemic made me stupid would be a discredit to all I did and became during it, all I endured.